I am finally in my 8th and last month of my pregnancy. I know… time just flew by! Right now, I would say that I’m feeling very anxious. Another thing that I’ve noticed is that my mind is more at peace (even though I still get those moody and emotional attacks here and there.) It’s definitely not like the first 3 months when my mind was all over the place and I was defensive about everything. The months between the 3rd and 6th month just felt like a transition from feeling very lost and sad to being happy and realizing the huge blessing that is on the way.
Now more than ever, there’s a feeling of complete happiness and positivity surrounding me. There are a certain few who will throw a negative comment here and there, but that doesn’t bring me down one bit. Every time I think about finally holding my little baby girl in my arms, I can’t help but smile, even on a rainy day like today.
Today, I was sitting in my car by myself and started to look back on the ups and downs of my pregnancy. I did cry when I thought about the friends that I lost along the way. You would think that at a time like this, your friends would be right there with you each step of the way. Unfortunately, it wasn’t like that for me. Don’t get me wrong, I do have a couple of friends that have stood by me through the thick and thin and are still there for me now. I love them to death.
During the first few months of my pregnancy, I lost some of my closest friends. When I found out I was pregnant, I was juggling 6 classes, an internship with Showtime, work, and being the president of my class and also the Latin American Service Organization. I was so stressed out, that when the pregnancy news hit, it just topped everything off. When I decided to tell some of my close friends the news, I received good and bad reactions. A lot of them did not believe it and the fact that I told them on April Fools’ Day made it even worse. In the end, they were all there for support.
A few weeks passed by and I felt very lonely. I had Mike, but there are just days when you want to hang out with a girlfriend. With all the changes going on in my body and my life, I got in touch with my sensitive and defensive side. Some friends that I considered my sisters became non-existent. Some were lost due to petty arguments that got way out of hand, others for the lack of communication, and a couple that just weren’t there anymore. When you’re in a situation like this, you truly realize who your real friends are.
Before my pregnancy, I was an average college girl that just wanted to enjoy every second of her life. I was the adventurous type that would decide to go to Atlantic City just for the heck of it. There was one time that I managed to drive to AC 3 different days in one week. It’s a lot of mileage, but it was worth it. One thing I’ve always loved to do was dance. When I was on a dance floor, I felt so free. My friends considered me the girl that was down to go anywhere at anytime and they loved that about me. Now that I was pregnant, I wouldn’t be able to be that person anymore and I was perfectly fine with that. I was, in a way, getting tired of that lifestyle.
Recently, I decided to open my heart to the friends that I’ve lost for stupid reasons. I have always been the type of person that could not hold grudges against people for a long period of time. I believe that life is too short to not appreciate the people that God has put in your life. Trust me, they are all there for a reason. So now I’ve recovered some of my closest friends and updated them with what I’ve been up to. Life is great now! Communication can get you very far and I’m glad that I have these friends back in my life. I’m better off having friends than having enemies.
One friend that has been with me through the ups and downs is Mike. I am beyond grateful to have him in my life and I honestly don’t know what I would do without him. He keeps me sane, happy, motivated, and determined. He is everything good that I could have asked for. Even though there are times when he can drive me up the wall, the best quality that he has is the ability to make me laugh, especially when I’m feeling down. If you haven’t met Mike, you don’t know what you’re missing. He has to be the funniest guy I’ve ever met and that’s why I love him. I truly feel like I found my soulmate because I can’t picture myself with anyone else. He has been the person that I tell it all to and I know he won’t judge me. My one and only friend, Mikey.
With that being said, it’s on to happy times now and forever. I have Mike, I have my family, I have my friends, I have my education, I have a job, so all I need is my baby and my life will be complete. 4 more weeks until my baby girl is here with us and I just can’t wait!!!
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